Irony of life

When you want the sun to shine out bright
When you think everything is going your way
Just when you feel things are perfect
The clouds creep in
The day fades leaving behind a dim light
And that’s the end of a perfect day

This is life
This is the irony
It plays a game
Something that we never can see

When you want to catch a dream
When you think the time has finally come
Just when you feel your hard work has paid off
You can hear a laugh
The dreams you had built have all been shattered
And that’s the end of something that mattered

This is life
This is the irony
It plays a game
Something that we never can see

When you want someone so much
When you are waiting for that one touch
Just when you feel you can ask her out
The distance seems further
Your steps take longer
And that’s the of a perfect bond

This is life
This is the irony
It plays a game
Something that we never can see

When you finally feel content
When you think you have got all that you want
Just when sorrows no longer haunt
The doors open
The day fades, the lights dim
And that is the end of a perfect life

Friend

When I think of the time we spend together
It brings a smile on my face
The memories of those days
Reminds me of our carefree ways

We could talk for days together
People were amused at us forever
They thought we had get bored someday
But till now we haven’t parted our ways

We shared unspoken words
We stood together through thick and thin
And happily shared our losses and wins
Together we never need a third

I’m glad I found a true friend in you
You stood up for me when I needed it the most
You told me right from wrong when I seemed to be a little lost
I’m glad to have found a friendship so true

Today when our only meetings are virtual
Our understanding still remains mutual
We can still share a moment of silence
In mails that we read
And messages that we send
But I still feel the strength of our friendship will never end


(poo this is for u)

College days

As I left my secure world behind
I started a new journey
A step towards new friends
A bond build to last till the end

With time passing by
Strangers were no longer strange
It was a surprisingly an easy change
From faces unknown
To a new family I built

We all spent hours together
Building dreams and holding on to each other
Talking endlessly into the nights
Surviving and becoming stronger even through fights

We thought the same thoughts
Shared the same laughter
Together nothing else ever seemed to matter

When time came to bid goodbye
Eyes filled with tears
In my heart I always knew you had be near
Cause we had made a promise to be friends till we die

....

I feel so drained
I don’t know what to do or where to go
I wish somebody could guide me through

I have always been strong
Never needed anyone for so long
But now I feel alone

For ages I always had hope
I have always known how to cope
But now I feel lost

I can’t seem to find a light
It feels like I no longer have the will to fight
I’m drowning in the ocean of my sorrows

I wish I could get out
I wish I could start all over again
I wish I wasn’t in as much pain

The world seem to turn its back on me
I can only feel the darkness
Capturing me and tearing away my happiness

I feel so tired
I no longer feel like going on
The faith is gone
And my hope is lost
I no longer believe
All I can do is in sadness grieve

It's time to let go

It’s time I let go
It’s time I move on
I want to stay
I don’t want to leave
As I walk away my heart sits and grieves

I have packed all my memories
I have taken along my precious moments
Hoping they will be my support
When I would be alone and would need you the most

I know I have broken my promise
I know I’m to blame
You would be hurt and u would feel deceived
But some things can never be the same

As time flies
You would realize
All I meant was love
All I ever wanted was for you to be happy
I walked with a tear in my eye
I walked way even If I knew I without you I had die

I wish you forgave me
I wish you could picture what I can see
I hope in vain
You could see my pain

I leave with a prayer
And with a promise that I will always care
My heart bleeds
My soul cries
I know it’s time to let go
I know it’s time to move on

Do I ?

I’m staring at the ceiling
Hoping to find an answer to my feelings
I feel the clutter inside me
It drowns me like a drop in the sea

Why is that I feel so restless
My mind seem elsewhere
My heart is crying
If only I knew what I was meant to do
If only I had a reason to start again and new

I look for a meaning
I search for the truth
The empty silence, the blank walls
I feel like I need an awakening call

There is a void within my soul
A pain that doesn’t let go
It’s the numbness within my heart
That feels like it could tear me apart

I wonder what is really wrong
I wonder the core of my existence
Do I really need to be alive?
Do I really need to survive?
Do I make a difference to anybody?
Or am’ I just another nobody…

Love you!!!

When you came into my life
You swept me of my feet
With love so true and promises so strong
I knew you were the one
To hold my hand, to be with me all along

You guided me through rough times
You protected me from the world outside
You held me close when I needed it the most
I knew you were the one
To swim back with me all the way back to the coast

With the first step we took together
The world for me changed forever
Everyday is a new beginning
Every night is so special
I knew you were the one
To have given my life a new meaning

It’s been so long that you have stood by me
Things have changed but only for the better
The joy so endless and love so true
That with every passing day our relation is getting stronger
I knew you were the one
Cause I love you, I really do

I knew it was coming

I waited.
I hoped...
I prayed....
Then there were tears
Somewhere in my heart
I knew I was alone left to face my fears
I had blind faith in you
Faith, which took me away from my inner voice
I ignored the warnings felt by me
I should have backed out when I had a choice

In you I believed
Your hands I trusted
My life I gave away to you
Without a question of your love for me being true
When you walked out of my life
I had no one to blame but me
All along I knew what was happening
Nothing was hidden the facts I was just denying

I didn’t want to face the truth
I was sacred of what I would hear
I was scared to go back to being without you
I was scared of not having you near

If only we had spoken
If only I knew what took you away
We might have still been together
We might have had a future

Sorry

When I look into your eyes
They seem so far
The closeness we had build together
Seems to have lost forever
Yet I hold on a final string of hope
I wish all this would pass by
Long before my heart dies

I want to stand by your side
I want to hold your hand
I want you to know I understand
I want you to know its ok to have cried

Promises we had made have been lost
Dreams we had built have been shattered
Our paths have crossed and have parted ways
With loneliness being a companion for our days

I want to take it back to old days
I want to say sorry I will mend my ways
I want you to know what matters to me the most is you
I want you to know I will always be waiting for you

We always were best of friends
With plans of being together till the end
We understood we cared
Every joy and tear we always shared

Walking together hand in hand
I never realized when you fingers slipped out of mine
I was waiting for you to return
I was hoping your steps would turn
I hoped till the stars spread their shine
Till I realized you were no longer mine

I want the pain to go away
I want my soul to be free
Free from a burden of hurting you
As my steps take me to an uncertain way
The grounds beneath me slip away
I wish you had known my love for you
Was always pure was always true
As the winds blow and night turns lonely
I walk into the oceans to be forever free

Questions unanswered

As I open my eyes to the world
I can see the disappointed faces
I can hear the hushed whispers
Drowned in the silent sobs and the painful tears

My smile answered by anger
My voice silenced by hatred
My questions remain unanswered
My soul remains untouched

I take my first step
A step to survive
I ask for help, I look for support
I reach out for a lending hand
Pulled away before I could stand

The doors are slammed on my face
I’m treated like filth, I’m treated like dirt
Just the way I was always treated from birth

Through the sun and the rain
There is only one thing that remains
It is my heart in sorrow, my heart in pain

I spent my life wondering on streets
Looking for an answer
Looking for a meaning
In search of a new beginning
To a life so unwanted
A wound so deep
It could make the heavens bleed
It could make the dead weep.

Two worlds apart

I walk past a window 

With lights glittering inside 

Warmth of happiness 

And joy so endless 

A smile draws across my face 

They looked so blessed 

They seem so free 

In their eyes the world you see 

The echo of their laughter fills my ears 

They look like angel's all so near 

Then the lights fade 

As the night creeps 

I hear a little sob 

I hear little weep 

I walk to window right across the street 

To a world so different, yet so sweet 

They looked blessed 

They seem so calm 

Theirs eyes filled with hope 

Their minds ready to explore 

They are the ones I really adore 

Both worlds seem so apart 

Yet they have the same love in their heart 

One filled with glittering gold 

The other of stories untold

Tanvee

Memories lost

My mind drifts to my past
Something I have tried to figure out for so long
I seem to have a vague image
With memories so blur
And faces so strange
I feel like a bird locked up in a cage

As I look at people walk past me
I search through the crowd
Searching for path
To take me back to my start

I pray real hard to take me back
Back to a life that I knew
Back to the place where I belong
Even if it was a broken song

As the rain pours down
I feel so helpless
My tears drown in drops of heaven
I move around my walk so aimless

In darkness as I search for the a way
A light guides me out to the day
Leaves me behind with a happy thought
To be thankful for the new life I have got

You moved on..

Life came to a sudden stop
When I heard you had moved on
Just yesterday you were there
And now you are gone

Your face looks calm
You look so much at peace
Even at this hour
I’m enchanted by your charm

I can’t let go of you
I don’t understand
How you could survive
Without holding my hand

I wish you could explain
I wish we could reason
I wish I could ask
Why you left me behind in pain

Without a word
You seem to have closed the doors to the world
In darkness I sit
Waiting for an answer
Waiting for a response

They are taking you away from me
No argument from you I see
This not what you promised
This is not what we wished.

The rays of the sun peep through my window
I smile at the thought of a new beginning
The sky seems clear the flowers look bright
It’s a new day a new start a new life

I'm glad yesterday passed by
I'm glad I could survive the dark clouds
I feel like a survivor
I feel a lot stronger

I have faith in myself
I have hope that never fades
I walk away from my past
This is how I move on to happiness that always lasts.

A friend in me one day you will see ..

When I look into your eyes
I can see the anger
Your heart full of hatred
I can feel your regret
I can hear your cries

You say you love me
but that is not what i see
I can sense the fear
A fear of me being near

Every minute we spend together
Every voice that comes from within
Seems to push me away
Feels like i will loose you forever

I want you to know
I will always be there
Waiting for you to call
Holding you when you fall
I want you to know I really do care

You may have lost your trust in me
You may have moved a million steps away
But I will always love you come what may
And hope a friend in me you will one day see.

There are days when the sun don’t shine
There are days when the flowers don’t bloom
These are the days when I gloom
These are days when you no longer were mine

Every moment I spend alone
Every step I take away from you
Every time I try to start new
I feel life within me has gone

The nights seem long
The moon doesn’t show
My heart doesn’t want to let go
You leave me behind not so strong

Every moment I spend alone
Every breath I take in loneliness
I live in darkness
Even though my happiness is long gone