Sorry

When I look into your eyes
They seem so far
The closeness we had build together
Seems to have lost forever
Yet I hold on a final string of hope
I wish all this would pass by
Long before my heart dies

I want to stand by your side
I want to hold your hand
I want you to know I understand
I want you to know its ok to have cried

Promises we had made have been lost
Dreams we had built have been shattered
Our paths have crossed and have parted ways
With loneliness being a companion for our days

I want to take it back to old days
I want to say sorry I will mend my ways
I want you to know what matters to me the most is you
I want you to know I will always be waiting for you

We always were best of friends
With plans of being together till the end
We understood we cared
Every joy and tear we always shared

Walking together hand in hand
I never realized when you fingers slipped out of mine
I was waiting for you to return
I was hoping your steps would turn
I hoped till the stars spread their shine
Till I realized you were no longer mine

I want the pain to go away
I want my soul to be free
Free from a burden of hurting you
As my steps take me to an uncertain way
The grounds beneath me slip away
I wish you had known my love for you
Was always pure was always true
As the winds blow and night turns lonely
I walk into the oceans to be forever free

Questions unanswered

As I open my eyes to the world
I can see the disappointed faces
I can hear the hushed whispers
Drowned in the silent sobs and the painful tears

My smile answered by anger
My voice silenced by hatred
My questions remain unanswered
My soul remains untouched

I take my first step
A step to survive
I ask for help, I look for support
I reach out for a lending hand
Pulled away before I could stand

The doors are slammed on my face
I’m treated like filth, I’m treated like dirt
Just the way I was always treated from birth

Through the sun and the rain
There is only one thing that remains
It is my heart in sorrow, my heart in pain

I spent my life wondering on streets
Looking for an answer
Looking for a meaning
In search of a new beginning
To a life so unwanted
A wound so deep
It could make the heavens bleed
It could make the dead weep.