As the alarm rings..my hands stretch mechanically to switch it off. I lay down in my bed awake but my eyes still shut another 5 minutes and I drag myself to the washroom I know i will be late if i don't hurry but then as usual i push the thought away. This is my everyday routine,I wake up each morning and go about doing the same things i have been doing for the past few years and yet I realize how through these years I have changed and so has the world around me.
As I brush my teeth I look at the person standing in front of me I can barely notice the slight resemblance which i believe is fading each day with life itself. My hair all tied up in a bun..Now i don't specifically remember wanting to grow my hair, just that i missed my appointment the last time i planned to visit the parlor. My eyes seem to be lost in the pool of dark circles so dark that it looks like my eye liner is smudged and i smile at the memory of telling my friends about wanting dark circles to look studious.
My heart suddenly skips a beat as the door bell rings, the newspapers here. I love reading the paper sipping on a hot cup of coffee on my terrace. The reason i bought this house was its location, the surrounding greenery and a quiet neighborhood. I thought it would be a gateway from my life in the suburbs of the city. It was great for sometime until i got a neighbor and then in no time i was surrounded by quite a few neighborhoods.
A blaring horn of a truck interrupts my thoughts and i get back to reality i have to get going rush to work. As I rush my way out I'm hoping I reach on time I send a prayer up as usual for a miracle to happen. Deep inside i know there is no such thing as miracle its just drive fast and faster and safe enough not to kill anybody. I hate driving it surprises me why my profile shows driving as my hobby. I'm sure somebody in office was playing a prank on me, who could it be to change my profile so drastically,everything seems wrong my profile, my work, my sitting location,who could possibly hate me to make it worst...who..who...????...............................................................................
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I open my eyes to a different world. I'm in a room surrounded by huge machines and there are a few people around me looking not so sure. I feel so tired and fagged out as if i have just finished a jog across the globe. I'm trying to comprehend what is happening around me thats when i realize i was supposed to be in office, this time i will be fired for sure. Not that I'm too popular in office somebody even had the cheek to change my profile................oh my god!!!!! now i remember what had happened i was thinking and was so engrossed in trying to figure out my enemies in office that i went off the road and my car rolled down a small valley...i remember the pain and the frightened thoughts of death going through my mind. I can feel my blood rush,my body can feel the pain, my fear overcomes my sanity and i drift away from the present,
I don't know how long it had been since i opened my eyes to life again. This time i saw happy faces, A few of my colleagues were visiting, My body did feel weak but i was strong enough to sit up. My family was there, its been quiet a while i haven't been home. I always had an excuse not to visit. A few more days pass, me being pampered a lot and then the doctors allow me to leave for home.
My sister says she will drive and i don't put up an argument I sit next to the drivers seat..she says she has a surprise for me. Even through my excitement my body was not yet prepared as she drives i doze off. When I do wake up and look outside the road is so beautiful it is surrounded by greenery and it stretches far to the horizon.I suddenly feel the urge to drive,i tell my sister to stop driving i want to be behind the wheel. She lets me take the wheels and we continue our journey. The feeling of driving is amazing, I'm actually enjoying it..the rest of our journey is a quite one..I don't feel the need to talk driving give me a feeling of self security it allows me to go any place i want to be where no one has been thats why its my favorite hobby...it was me....i was the one who made that profile...i hated myself...i never cared enough...i neglected myself..my family..things i love to do.....I now know how i changed and left the real me behind...I have to get myself back The accident was a blessing in disguise I got a new life. My office let me work from home. I had shifted my base to a locality i loved (that was the surprise my sister had for me). In my mind i knew things would change and this place would be soon eaten up my the growing population and commercial aspects of life..but i was ready for the change this time...i will not let it come in the way of being me. Due to the accident my hair was back to normal it had to be cut short and smart just the way i liked it..my eyes were not hidden behind dark circles because i had got enough of involuntary sleep.... :)
God did answer my prayer and sent me a miracle...
Tanvee Nadkarni
Friday, May 16, 2008
Life's not fair...maybe we aren't fair
'Xxyyaaa' has been stranded, with no where to go and nobody to lean on. She is left by herself answering unwanted questions, reasoning with life and the law of nature...sounds familiar? Doesn't it? its in news all the time. There have been so many such cases recorded and yet so many others left unheard.
I fail to understand those people who leave behind their parents, grandparents alone when they are needed the most. Its a shame to see the increase in need of old age homes with the increasing number of people being removed out of their own homes considering them to be an inconvenience.
Why do we forget they were the one who laid our core foundation,We are what we are today because of their faith in us and unconditional love that stood by us during our odds in life.
We took our first step in life holding on to them for their support and guidance and now we cannot even spare a few minutes for them.
When questioned each one of us has an excuse for our behavior some even cut themselves out because they consider themselves out of this league, shielding themselves behind walls of self denial. Just because we pay their bills or let them stay with us doesn't mean we are a lot better than those who have sent them away.
Imagine being shunned as a kid because you needed support to sit up or even take a few steps. Imagine being hungry because your parents or grandparents were too busy in their daily routines to care for you.
What would your life be if they treated you the same way as you treat them now? If they had their set of excuses to not spare enough time for you. What if you had no one to go back home to after school, Nobody to pamper you with the best they were capable of, What if........
The list can go on forever.
So why don't we change ourselves just a bit, spare an hour our two every day from our busy schedules to talk to our parents,grandparents. Sit by there side give them all the support they need without complaining or their asking.
Trust me spare a little time and loads of love these will be some of the most memorable days of your life
To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world....
Tanvee Nadkarni
I fail to understand those people who leave behind their parents, grandparents alone when they are needed the most. Its a shame to see the increase in need of old age homes with the increasing number of people being removed out of their own homes considering them to be an inconvenience.
Why do we forget they were the one who laid our core foundation,We are what we are today because of their faith in us and unconditional love that stood by us during our odds in life.
We took our first step in life holding on to them for their support and guidance and now we cannot even spare a few minutes for them.
When questioned each one of us has an excuse for our behavior some even cut themselves out because they consider themselves out of this league, shielding themselves behind walls of self denial. Just because we pay their bills or let them stay with us doesn't mean we are a lot better than those who have sent them away.
Imagine being shunned as a kid because you needed support to sit up or even take a few steps. Imagine being hungry because your parents or grandparents were too busy in their daily routines to care for you.
What would your life be if they treated you the same way as you treat them now? If they had their set of excuses to not spare enough time for you. What if you had no one to go back home to after school, Nobody to pamper you with the best they were capable of, What if........
The list can go on forever.
So why don't we change ourselves just a bit, spare an hour our two every day from our busy schedules to talk to our parents,grandparents. Sit by there side give them all the support they need without complaining or their asking.
Trust me spare a little time and loads of love these will be some of the most memorable days of your life
To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world....
Tanvee Nadkarni
Dreams..
Have you ever had dreams. Dreams that you cherished as a child,that have kept you occupied for hours as a teenager, dreams whom you have left far behind and moved on in life without even realizing.
These dreams are the ones we built believing in ourselves and our imaginations. But as time passed we focus so much on the worldly pleasures that we let a part of us fade away with our past.
In this fast moving,ever changing, competitive world we have lost touch with our inner self, We believe in things we see , hear around us. We tend to trust the outer world more than the inner voice which is suppressed by the sheer peer pressure around us.
Look at yourself, you might have the money, the luxuries that the world has to offer yet not many of us get a good nights sleep. How many of us are really happy? How many of us wish we where in some other place doing something else we enjoyed or always longed for.
We are so accustomed to living and following the world around us that we keep our dreams and passions hidden deep within our hearts in places we never explore cause we don't have the time to
Most of us keep these feeling blocked or hidden in the fear of the world around us not accepting, not supporting them and the fear of not attaining the so called worldly luxuries makes us hold them back.
In the process we turn our back to true happiness and satisfaction in life. Take sometime for yourself go back to your childhood when you feared nothing, when you believed in yourself,fought the world to stand by your dreams,when there where no self doubting questions
.
Its never to late to start taking a step towards your dreams and when you do, a new you will be discovered. The happiness, satisfaction and confidence you will have will shoot up to the sky and all this because you believe in yourself and listen voice that has been calling you for so long.
Take that first step towards yourself the rest will follow to build a new world for you.
Remember: The future you see is the future you that will be!!!!
Tanvee Nadkarni
These dreams are the ones we built believing in ourselves and our imaginations. But as time passed we focus so much on the worldly pleasures that we let a part of us fade away with our past.
In this fast moving,ever changing, competitive world we have lost touch with our inner self, We believe in things we see , hear around us. We tend to trust the outer world more than the inner voice which is suppressed by the sheer peer pressure around us.
Look at yourself, you might have the money, the luxuries that the world has to offer yet not many of us get a good nights sleep. How many of us are really happy? How many of us wish we where in some other place doing something else we enjoyed or always longed for.
We are so accustomed to living and following the world around us that we keep our dreams and passions hidden deep within our hearts in places we never explore cause we don't have the time to
Most of us keep these feeling blocked or hidden in the fear of the world around us not accepting, not supporting them and the fear of not attaining the so called worldly luxuries makes us hold them back.
In the process we turn our back to true happiness and satisfaction in life. Take sometime for yourself go back to your childhood when you feared nothing, when you believed in yourself,fought the world to stand by your dreams,when there where no self doubting questions
.
Its never to late to start taking a step towards your dreams and when you do, a new you will be discovered. The happiness, satisfaction and confidence you will have will shoot up to the sky and all this because you believe in yourself and listen voice that has been calling you for so long.
Take that first step towards yourself the rest will follow to build a new world for you.
Remember: The future you see is the future you that will be!!!!
Tanvee Nadkarni
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