Understanding me..

I have seen this feeling in the face
I have felt the pain and the disgrace
People I loved have told me to go
They look away at the fear of my shadow

No matter how hard I try
No matter how much I care
Every step I take is considered a mistake
Every emotions of mine is considered fake
To them my love feels like a lie

I don’t know where I go wrong
I listen to their sorrows
I wipe their tears
And yet they look at me with fear

They question my love
They hurt my feelings
They stay away from me
Cause no faith in me they can see

I want them to know I’m not that bad
I want them to know they make me sad
If only they would have understood me
My love for them they would see

I didn't want to

I can see grim faces
I can see teary eyes
All wishing for a miracle
All wanting to trade their lives

I had never seen so much love
I had never felt so much pain
The white corridors were filled with people
Each trying to console the other

I wanted them to know all would be OK
I wanted them to know I would make things right
I wanted them to know I would be there till the morn
Keeping them company all through the night

I didn’t want to hurt them so bad
I didn’t want to make them cry
I didn’t want to leave them behind
I really dint want to die…

I struggled to see them for the last time
I put on a fake smile
My heart didn’t want to let go
But life had other plans
The faces faded out
The voices seemed far
I knew it was time to move on
I knew it was time to go…

Unknown voices

As the day fades
I walk deeper into the woods
I want to stay away
But something compels me to go on

Unknown voices fill my mind
They conquer my thoughts
And rule my heart
I want to say no
But I still continue to go

Lost in the darkness
I stumble across the path
I dread my next step
As the future I cannot see
But the voices keep me focused
They tell me where to be

I continue in blind faith
Believing in what I can only hear
I want to break free
I want me to explore
Instead on being what the voices want me to be

I have tried to escape
I have tired to hide
But they always seem to be following
Ruling my mind guiding my soul
I want them to let go
But they never will, I know…

Irony of life

When you want the sun to shine out bright
When you think everything is going your way
Just when you feel things are perfect
The clouds creep in
The day fades leaving behind a dim light
And that’s the end of a perfect day

This is life
This is the irony
It plays a game
Something that we never can see

When you want to catch a dream
When you think the time has finally come
Just when you feel your hard work has paid off
You can hear a laugh
The dreams you had built have all been shattered
And that’s the end of something that mattered

This is life
This is the irony
It plays a game
Something that we never can see

When you want someone so much
When you are waiting for that one touch
Just when you feel you can ask her out
The distance seems further
Your steps take longer
And that’s the of a perfect bond

This is life
This is the irony
It plays a game
Something that we never can see

When you finally feel content
When you think you have got all that you want
Just when sorrows no longer haunt
The doors open
The day fades, the lights dim
And that is the end of a perfect life

Friend

When I think of the time we spend together
It brings a smile on my face
The memories of those days
Reminds me of our carefree ways

We could talk for days together
People were amused at us forever
They thought we had get bored someday
But till now we haven’t parted our ways

We shared unspoken words
We stood together through thick and thin
And happily shared our losses and wins
Together we never need a third

I’m glad I found a true friend in you
You stood up for me when I needed it the most
You told me right from wrong when I seemed to be a little lost
I’m glad to have found a friendship so true

Today when our only meetings are virtual
Our understanding still remains mutual
We can still share a moment of silence
In mails that we read
And messages that we send
But I still feel the strength of our friendship will never end


(poo this is for u)

College days

As I left my secure world behind
I started a new journey
A step towards new friends
A bond build to last till the end

With time passing by
Strangers were no longer strange
It was a surprisingly an easy change
From faces unknown
To a new family I built

We all spent hours together
Building dreams and holding on to each other
Talking endlessly into the nights
Surviving and becoming stronger even through fights

We thought the same thoughts
Shared the same laughter
Together nothing else ever seemed to matter

When time came to bid goodbye
Eyes filled with tears
In my heart I always knew you had be near
Cause we had made a promise to be friends till we die

....

I feel so drained
I don’t know what to do or where to go
I wish somebody could guide me through

I have always been strong
Never needed anyone for so long
But now I feel alone

For ages I always had hope
I have always known how to cope
But now I feel lost

I can’t seem to find a light
It feels like I no longer have the will to fight
I’m drowning in the ocean of my sorrows

I wish I could get out
I wish I could start all over again
I wish I wasn’t in as much pain

The world seem to turn its back on me
I can only feel the darkness
Capturing me and tearing away my happiness

I feel so tired
I no longer feel like going on
The faith is gone
And my hope is lost
I no longer believe
All I can do is in sadness grieve