Thank you for letting me go

You let me walk away
You let me be on my own
You gave me the space I needed
Even though your heart you was torn
You let me go that day

You cared enough to watch me leave
You loved enough to listen to my heart
You gave me the courage to start alone
Even though forever we would be apart
You promised in me you would always believe

You wanted me to chase my desires
You taught me to hear my voice
You wanted me be free
Even though you had a choice
You smiled with a tear...
As I left you behind just to climb higher…

What is it that we have?

What is it that we have?
Is it love or is it hate?
Is it just addiction?
That has kept us together?

Every time you look at me
I can see the rage in your eyes
Every time you speak to me
I can hear words of anger
Yet we can’t part ways

What is it that we have?
Is it love or is it hate?
Is it just addiction?
That has kept us together?

You want to be on your own
I can feel you slip away
You want me to give you space
I feel I no longer know you
Though you are always around

What is it that we have?
Is it love or is it hate?
Is it just addiction?
That has kept us together?

Your never seem to agree
I don’t know what to do
You never want to change
I tried but it’s hard for me too
Even as we struggle to be happy

What is it that we have?
Is it love or is it hate?
Is it just addiction?
That has kept us together?

Is it really me???

My life doesn’t seem mine
Thousands of voices speak
Making me weak
Telling me what to do
Telling me who to be
I wish I could draw the line

Their thoughts are my guide
I live for them
With no one but me to blame
Believing their words to be mine
Believing my life to be theirs
I wish from all this I could hide

I have no love of my own
Nothing that belongs to me
Not even my soul
Fearing the words I speak
Fearing the steps I take
As I live in a world unknown

I tread along barren land
With no want or hope
With a blind conscious
My confidence has disappeared
My smile has faded
As I continue to be dragged by some unknown hand

End of a new beginning

I could feel your heart
Its rhythm aligned with mine
I could picture your face
With a little of my trace

You made me feel complete
You gave me a reason to live
I spent my days waiting to hold you
Waiting for my dreams to come true

Your were my sunshine
You were my
You were the one who had given me the courage
To take-up this new voyage

For months I prayed for your safety
For months I thanked god
I imagined our time together
Filling my heart with pleasure

Then came the time
When you would see the world with me
With every clock tick
My heart began to panic

I could feel something wrong
You weren’t being your self
Your soul seemed to have gone
Leaving behind a dark dawn

You lay in my arms
Wrapped in love
Your face was perfect, your fingers so small
I held on to you hoping for a miracle
Hoping you would smile back at me
Hoping I would hear your crying
But somewhere in my heart I knew this was the end of a new beginning

Paint it black

Paint it black
Don’t let the pain show
Hide the drifts
Don’t let them grow

Paint it black
The color of hate
Holding together a relation
By luck and fate

Paint it black
Coz my heart feels cold
Caressing loneliness
Which with time unfolds

Paint it black
Our pictures together
Reminding of time
Which I will regret forever

Paint it black
Nothing else you can do
You hid you cheated
Its only anger I feel for you

Paint it black
Cover what remains
I don’t want memories
Lingering around causing pain

Paint it black
Coz those days were dark
They captured my soul
Leaving behind a life without a spark

Paint it black
Leave it that way
Hiding all my sorrows
Burying my rainy days

My mommy strongest :)

She held my hand at every step
She is my strength at every fall
She is my pillar on which I blindly lean
She is my courage that remains unseen

She has been with me all my life
She cared for me with all her love
Looked after my needs with all her heart
She has protected me even though we were apart

She hid her compromise with a smile
Just to give me the life I live
She has shared her joys and covered her pain
Just so that my happiness remains

She has heard me cry
She has heard me scream
She has felt my pain
Even before I complain

She watched me walk away from home
She watched me as I drifted to a world of friends
Yet she stood by me when the world turned away
Together with me she waited till the night turned day

I have never really thanked her
For the love she bestowed upon me
For making me feel like the luckiest daughter
To have such a wonderful friends a wonderful mother


Thank you Aai

!!!

As the pain cuts through
Silently I watch you
A smile spreads across your face
No signs of regret I could trace

I had put my trust in you
Believed every word you said was true
You hid behind the shadows of hate
Planning my death as a part of your fate

I had never done you any wrong
For your hatred to be so strong
Your eyes filled with remorse
As if crying over somebody’s loss

As I struggled to stay alive
I knew this is the end I wouldn’t survive
I wish I had known what had I done
To be killed by my own son