It's time to let go

It’s time I let go
It’s time I move on
I want to stay
I don’t want to leave
As I walk away my heart sits and grieves

I have packed all my memories
I have taken along my precious moments
Hoping they will be my support
When I would be alone and would need you the most

I know I have broken my promise
I know I’m to blame
You would be hurt and u would feel deceived
But some things can never be the same

As time flies
You would realize
All I meant was love
All I ever wanted was for you to be happy
I walked with a tear in my eye
I walked way even If I knew I without you I had die

I wish you forgave me
I wish you could picture what I can see
I hope in vain
You could see my pain

I leave with a prayer
And with a promise that I will always care
My heart bleeds
My soul cries
I know it’s time to let go
I know it’s time to move on

Do I ?

I’m staring at the ceiling
Hoping to find an answer to my feelings
I feel the clutter inside me
It drowns me like a drop in the sea

Why is that I feel so restless
My mind seem elsewhere
My heart is crying
If only I knew what I was meant to do
If only I had a reason to start again and new

I look for a meaning
I search for the truth
The empty silence, the blank walls
I feel like I need an awakening call

There is a void within my soul
A pain that doesn’t let go
It’s the numbness within my heart
That feels like it could tear me apart

I wonder what is really wrong
I wonder the core of my existence
Do I really need to be alive?
Do I really need to survive?
Do I make a difference to anybody?
Or am’ I just another nobody…

Love you!!!

When you came into my life
You swept me of my feet
With love so true and promises so strong
I knew you were the one
To hold my hand, to be with me all along

You guided me through rough times
You protected me from the world outside
You held me close when I needed it the most
I knew you were the one
To swim back with me all the way back to the coast

With the first step we took together
The world for me changed forever
Everyday is a new beginning
Every night is so special
I knew you were the one
To have given my life a new meaning

It’s been so long that you have stood by me
Things have changed but only for the better
The joy so endless and love so true
That with every passing day our relation is getting stronger
I knew you were the one
Cause I love you, I really do

I knew it was coming

I waited.
I hoped...
I prayed....
Then there were tears
Somewhere in my heart
I knew I was alone left to face my fears
I had blind faith in you
Faith, which took me away from my inner voice
I ignored the warnings felt by me
I should have backed out when I had a choice

In you I believed
Your hands I trusted
My life I gave away to you
Without a question of your love for me being true
When you walked out of my life
I had no one to blame but me
All along I knew what was happening
Nothing was hidden the facts I was just denying

I didn’t want to face the truth
I was sacred of what I would hear
I was scared to go back to being without you
I was scared of not having you near

If only we had spoken
If only I knew what took you away
We might have still been together
We might have had a future

Sorry

When I look into your eyes
They seem so far
The closeness we had build together
Seems to have lost forever
Yet I hold on a final string of hope
I wish all this would pass by
Long before my heart dies

I want to stand by your side
I want to hold your hand
I want you to know I understand
I want you to know its ok to have cried

Promises we had made have been lost
Dreams we had built have been shattered
Our paths have crossed and have parted ways
With loneliness being a companion for our days

I want to take it back to old days
I want to say sorry I will mend my ways
I want you to know what matters to me the most is you
I want you to know I will always be waiting for you

We always were best of friends
With plans of being together till the end
We understood we cared
Every joy and tear we always shared

Walking together hand in hand
I never realized when you fingers slipped out of mine
I was waiting for you to return
I was hoping your steps would turn
I hoped till the stars spread their shine
Till I realized you were no longer mine

I want the pain to go away
I want my soul to be free
Free from a burden of hurting you
As my steps take me to an uncertain way
The grounds beneath me slip away
I wish you had known my love for you
Was always pure was always true
As the winds blow and night turns lonely
I walk into the oceans to be forever free

Questions unanswered

As I open my eyes to the world
I can see the disappointed faces
I can hear the hushed whispers
Drowned in the silent sobs and the painful tears

My smile answered by anger
My voice silenced by hatred
My questions remain unanswered
My soul remains untouched

I take my first step
A step to survive
I ask for help, I look for support
I reach out for a lending hand
Pulled away before I could stand

The doors are slammed on my face
I’m treated like filth, I’m treated like dirt
Just the way I was always treated from birth

Through the sun and the rain
There is only one thing that remains
It is my heart in sorrow, my heart in pain

I spent my life wondering on streets
Looking for an answer
Looking for a meaning
In search of a new beginning
To a life so unwanted
A wound so deep
It could make the heavens bleed
It could make the dead weep.

Two worlds apart

I walk past a window 

With lights glittering inside 

Warmth of happiness 

And joy so endless 

A smile draws across my face 

They looked so blessed 

They seem so free 

In their eyes the world you see 

The echo of their laughter fills my ears 

They look like angel's all so near 

Then the lights fade 

As the night creeps 

I hear a little sob 

I hear little weep 

I walk to window right across the street 

To a world so different, yet so sweet 

They looked blessed 

They seem so calm 

Theirs eyes filled with hope 

Their minds ready to explore 

They are the ones I really adore 

Both worlds seem so apart 

Yet they have the same love in their heart 

One filled with glittering gold 

The other of stories untold

Tanvee