As the alarm rings..my hands stretch mechanically to switch it off. I lay down in my bed awake but my eyes still shut another 5 minutes and I drag myself to the washroom I know i will be late if i don't hurry but then as usual i push the thought away. This is my everyday routine,I wake up each morning and go about doing the same things i have been doing for the past few years and yet I realize how through these years I have changed and so has the world around me.
As I brush my teeth I look at the person standing in front of me I can barely notice the slight resemblance which i believe is fading each day with life itself. My hair all tied up in a bun..Now i don't specifically remember wanting to grow my hair, just that i missed my appointment the last time i planned to visit the parlor. My eyes seem to be lost in the pool of dark circles so dark that it looks like my eye liner is smudged and i smile at the memory of telling my friends about wanting dark circles to look studious.
My heart suddenly skips a beat as the door bell rings, the newspapers here. I love reading the paper sipping on a hot cup of coffee on my terrace. The reason i bought this house was its location, the surrounding greenery and a quiet neighborhood. I thought it would be a gateway from my life in the suburbs of the city. It was great for sometime until i got a neighbor and then in no time i was surrounded by quite a few neighborhoods.
A blaring horn of a truck interrupts my thoughts and i get back to reality i have to get going rush to work. As I rush my way out I'm hoping I reach on time I send a prayer up as usual for a miracle to happen. Deep inside i know there is no such thing as miracle its just drive fast and faster and safe enough not to kill anybody. I hate driving it surprises me why my profile shows driving as my hobby. I'm sure somebody in office was playing a prank on me, who could it be to change my profile so drastically,everything seems wrong my profile, my work, my sitting location,who could possibly hate me to make it worst...who..who...????...............................................................................
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I open my eyes to a different world. I'm in a room surrounded by huge machines and there are a few people around me looking not so sure. I feel so tired and fagged out as if i have just finished a jog across the globe. I'm trying to comprehend what is happening around me thats when i realize i was supposed to be in office, this time i will be fired for sure. Not that I'm too popular in office somebody even had the cheek to change my profile................oh my god!!!!! now i remember what had happened i was thinking and was so engrossed in trying to figure out my enemies in office that i went off the road and my car rolled down a small valley...i remember the pain and the frightened thoughts of death going through my mind. I can feel my blood rush,my body can feel the pain, my fear overcomes my sanity and i drift away from the present,
I don't know how long it had been since i opened my eyes to life again. This time i saw happy faces, A few of my colleagues were visiting, My body did feel weak but i was strong enough to sit up. My family was there, its been quiet a while i haven't been home. I always had an excuse not to visit. A few more days pass, me being pampered a lot and then the doctors allow me to leave for home.
My sister says she will drive and i don't put up an argument I sit next to the drivers seat..she says she has a surprise for me. Even through my excitement my body was not yet prepared as she drives i doze off. When I do wake up and look outside the road is so beautiful it is surrounded by greenery and it stretches far to the horizon.I suddenly feel the urge to drive,i tell my sister to stop driving i want to be behind the wheel. She lets me take the wheels and we continue our journey. The feeling of driving is amazing, I'm actually enjoying it..the rest of our journey is a quite one..I don't feel the need to talk driving give me a feeling of self security it allows me to go any place i want to be where no one has been thats why its my favorite hobby...it was me....i was the one who made that profile...i hated myself...i never cared enough...i neglected myself..my family..things i love to do.....I now know how i changed and left the real me behind...I have to get myself back The accident was a blessing in disguise I got a new life. My office let me work from home. I had shifted my base to a locality i loved (that was the surprise my sister had for me). In my mind i knew things would change and this place would be soon eaten up my the growing population and commercial aspects of life..but i was ready for the change this time...i will not let it come in the way of being me. Due to the accident my hair was back to normal it had to be cut short and smart just the way i liked it..my eyes were not hidden behind dark circles because i had got enough of involuntary sleep.... :)
God did answer my prayer and sent me a miracle...
Tanvee Nadkarni
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