I found it the hard way

I found it the hard way
It's always a lonely day
You will have company
Someone to watch a movie
But it will always be a dark night

I found it the hard way
It's going to fade away
You will have a family
But your heart will still want to be free

I found it the hard way
Even as they say
Every smile will remind you
That love can not always be true.

On my own...

First steps on my own
I'm ok being alone
My decision to walk away
My life to seize the day

First love left behind
I'm ok in mind
My hear breaks
My soul aches

First look away
I'm ok to say
My pain will go
My love will grow..

Change..

I have changed
I know you find it strange
But you need to let go
You need to know
I want to be on my own
I don't want to feel so torn

I want to have a say
I know you feel I have moved away
But you need to understand me
You need to see
I want dreams that I can call mine
I want my own light to shine

I wish for something more
I know it's behind locked doors
But you need to open your eyes
You need to break all ties
I want to live with no fear
I want to shed no tear

I'm so afraid..

I hide behind closed doors
I look away from the light
Against me I have to fight

As fear takes away my smile
I walk in shadows
I stay on my own as life goes

I speak no words
I silently survive
Each day I have to strive

My doubts hold me back
I'm so afraid
I dont think I can move ahead

Do you feel like me?

Do you feel like me?

Do you feel lost in this world?

Everyone rushing past you

No one looking back

Do you feel like me?
Do you feel like an outsider to life

Everyone walking away

No one just holding on

Do you feel like me?

Do you feel the emptiness?

Everyone leaving you behind

No one really cares...

I wonder if..

Thoughts wondering

Feelings lost

Nothing is known

Every breath is new

I wonder if this is how it will always be

Tears rolling

Fears hidden

Nothing is sure

Every stare is a blank

I wonder if this will ever change

Holding me back

I know I want to change
I know I need a different path
I know I need a new start
but somethings are holding me back

I know I have to take the first step
I know I need to be strong
I know I need to move on
but somethings are holding me back

I know I should  start now
I know I need my own way
I know I need my own day
but somethings are holding me back


I know I want answers
I know I need some space
I know I need a safe place
but somethings are holding me back