Change..

I have changed
I know you find it strange
But you need to let go
You need to know
I want to be on my own
I don't want to feel so torn

I want to have a say
I know you feel I have moved away
But you need to understand me
You need to see
I want dreams that I can call mine
I want my own light to shine

I wish for something more
I know it's behind locked doors
But you need to open your eyes
You need to break all ties
I want to live with no fear
I want to shed no tear

I'm so afraid..

I hide behind closed doors
I look away from the light
Against me I have to fight

As fear takes away my smile
I walk in shadows
I stay on my own as life goes

I speak no words
I silently survive
Each day I have to strive

My doubts hold me back
I'm so afraid
I dont think I can move ahead

Do you feel like me?

Do you feel like me?

Do you feel lost in this world?

Everyone rushing past you

No one looking back

Do you feel like me?
Do you feel like an outsider to life

Everyone walking away

No one just holding on

Do you feel like me?

Do you feel the emptiness?

Everyone leaving you behind

No one really cares...

I wonder if..

Thoughts wondering

Feelings lost

Nothing is known

Every breath is new

I wonder if this is how it will always be

Tears rolling

Fears hidden

Nothing is sure

Every stare is a blank

I wonder if this will ever change

Holding me back

I know I want to change
I know I need a different path
I know I need a new start
but somethings are holding me back

I know I have to take the first step
I know I need to be strong
I know I need to move on
but somethings are holding me back

I know I should  start now
I know I need my own way
I know I need my own day
but somethings are holding me back


I know I want answers
I know I need some space
I know I need a safe place
but somethings are holding me back

Nothing i can do

Where did all those years go?
Nothing seems the way it was
Its a feeling that i don't know
Deep inside i can feel the loss

You say things are fine
You feel the same
But i can no longer say you are mine
All i know is your name

Your smile is fake
Your words not true
I can see us break
But nothing i can do..

????

Do i really matter?
Or am i just another person?
Someone to hangout and have fun

Is my presence really felt?
Or am i just a shadow?
Putting up a show

Will I really be missed?
Or am i just a lost heart?
Whose absence will create a new start....