I wonder if..

Thoughts wondering

Feelings lost

Nothing is known

Every breath is new

I wonder if this is how it will always be

Tears rolling

Fears hidden

Nothing is sure

Every stare is a blank

I wonder if this will ever change

Holding me back

I know I want to change
I know I need a different path
I know I need a new start
but somethings are holding me back

I know I have to take the first step
I know I need to be strong
I know I need to move on
but somethings are holding me back

I know I should  start now
I know I need my own way
I know I need my own day
but somethings are holding me back


I know I want answers
I know I need some space
I know I need a safe place
but somethings are holding me back

Nothing i can do

Where did all those years go?
Nothing seems the way it was
Its a feeling that i don't know
Deep inside i can feel the loss

You say things are fine
You feel the same
But i can no longer say you are mine
All i know is your name

Your smile is fake
Your words not true
I can see us break
But nothing i can do..

????

Do i really matter?
Or am i just another person?
Someone to hangout and have fun

Is my presence really felt?
Or am i just a shadow?
Putting up a show

Will I really be missed?
Or am i just a lost heart?
Whose absence will create a new start....

Love has taught me

Love has taught me to be alone
Love has made me stronger
Love has made me mend a heart torn
Love has taught me to wait no longer

Love is not what i thought it was
Love is not always a smile
Love is not following natures laws
Love is always away a mile

Love has taught me to be alone
Love has made me stronger
Love has made me not hope for a spark
Love has taught me to wait no longer

Love is not always a call away
Love is not always true
Love is not what they say
Love is always to hurt you

why do i still love?
why do i still hold on to a hope?
Why do i still believe?
One day love will turn my world around...

You say you understand

You say you understand
And you close the door behind
Bare walls is all I find
As the clock ticks
The emptiness grows
I have nowhere to go
With every passing day
I think I like the silence
I have got used to your absence
The walls no longer haunt
Time stops for me
I can be myself with no one to see
As you walk away
It’s a beginning of a new day
With the doors closed
Loneliness creeps in for company
Shadows begin entertaining me
I no longer need your hand
Yet you say you understand….

See through my eyes...

See through my eye
Everything real is a lie
I can see a tear in a smile
I can feel the fear from a mile

See through my eye
Everything has a hidden cry
I can see the truth hidden deep
I can feel the shadows creep

See through my eye
Everything is to die
I can see your life fade away
I can feel the end of a day

See through my eye
Everything will pass by
I can see the buried remains
I can feel the unspoken pain

See through my eye
You will know I don’t lie…