My mommy strongest :)

She held my hand at every step
She is my strength at every fall
She is my pillar on which I blindly lean
She is my courage that remains unseen

She has been with me all my life
She cared for me with all her love
Looked after my needs with all her heart
She has protected me even though we were apart

She hid her compromise with a smile
Just to give me the life I live
She has shared her joys and covered her pain
Just so that my happiness remains

She has heard me cry
She has heard me scream
She has felt my pain
Even before I complain

She watched me walk away from home
She watched me as I drifted to a world of friends
Yet she stood by me when the world turned away
Together with me she waited till the night turned day

I have never really thanked her
For the love she bestowed upon me
For making me feel like the luckiest daughter
To have such a wonderful friends a wonderful mother


Thank you Aai

!!!

As the pain cuts through
Silently I watch you
A smile spreads across your face
No signs of regret I could trace

I had put my trust in you
Believed every word you said was true
You hid behind the shadows of hate
Planning my death as a part of your fate

I had never done you any wrong
For your hatred to be so strong
Your eyes filled with remorse
As if crying over somebody’s loss

As I struggled to stay alive
I knew this is the end I wouldn’t survive
I wish I had known what had I done
To be killed by my own son

One last time

I wish I could start all over again
I want to stop feeling the pain
No one understands me
No one my fear can see

I try and talk to those who say they love me
I try and explain I feel so cramped I want to be free
But no one listens to what I have to say
They only advise me to change my way

I cry when the lights are out
My mind in fear and in doubt
With no one to turn to
No answers of what to do

Hiding behind closed doors
Lying of the cold floor
The blade cuts through
To a feeling which is not so new

As the wound becomes deeper
I move a step closer
To a world unknown
To life not so torn

I can see the blood seep
I can hear my heart weep
But I know I have to be strong
I know this won't take long

One last time I take a look around
One last time I can feel my feet on the ground
One last time I can hear my sobs
One last time….

My lil sis

I have watched you grow
From a baby who held on to my hand
To a girl with a confident stand

I have seen you take your first steps
I have heard your first words
Now when I look at you
I smile at how fast time has gone by

From my baby doll
To a partner to visit the mall
Together we have built castles in air
Stood strong, as we have seen them break

I'm glad I have a friend at home
Who listens to me talk
Who, copies my walk
Who talks till I sleep
Who makes me laugh when I weep

I want to tell you
How precious you are to me
A reflection of mine in your eyes I see
Thank you for being such a great friend
Thank you for being such a great sister!!!

My place has already been taken …

I looked into you eyes
And searched for the hidden lies
I heard people say
It’s a game you play

Friends had warned me
They said truth I could not see
I was too much into you
To differ lie from what is true

As time moved on
All my doubts were gone
I lay my trust in you
And I gave my life too

At times I could feel the space
I felt fear staring at my face
But then I thought I was paranoid
Just wanting to fill up the void

I followed the path you had shown
I left behind all I had known
Walking away all alone
Little knowing my life was torn

For you I made my family cry
For you I was ready to die
I broke peoples heart
I tore relationships apart

At time I felt I was wrong
But with you I felt I did belong
Though you weren’t always there
Though you loved me you did swear

There were things that didn’t fit
There times when you couldn’t justify your bit
But I just let things go
I tired and let my mind ignore

I ignored you not coming home at night
I ignored your small talks and fights
I tried my best for you not to complain
I always had a smile even though I was in pain

As I walked past people who spoke behind my back
They discussed things I never had or did lack
They looked down upon me
For I was blind to all that I could see
They mocked at my fortune
And sang me off as a broken tune
They laughed at my misery
They gossiped of my tragedy

I wanted to go and hide
Behind closed door I broke down and cried
Then I heard the miffed voices
I realized I was a prey to my own choices
As I lay shattered and broken
I knew my place had already been taken

I close my eyes
Drift to a secure world
I speak to a power
So ambiguously felt
A presence that comforts me
A presence that sets me free

My worries disappear
My heart feels stronger
I can stand up and face my fear
As alone I feel no longer

In him I trust
In him I have faith
Though unknown to my mind
I know he cares I know he is kind
My heart knows believe in him I must

When the sun doesn’t shine
When the clouds creep in
I known I he will guide me through
Even if I’m stranded without a clue

He lets me question his presence
He patiently lets me complain
I doubt his love for me
I cry because he doesn’t let me be
And yet when I need him
I find him there standing tall
Making my problems fade away just like a dream.

There are times I forget to say thank you
There are times when I forget to say my prayer
Yet amidst all the confusion and the chaos
I know god will always be there
I know his love for me 100 % true

In faith

I continue in faith
Believe in hope
I tread along
On roads unknown
As question remain unanswered
My heart still beats
With dreams shattered
I still move on
Waiting for luck to shine
Waiting for the day to be mine
I continue in faith…