There are days when the sun don’t shine
There are days when the flowers don’t bloom
These are the days when I gloom
These are days when you no longer were mine

Every moment I spend alone
Every step I take away from you
Every time I try to start new
I feel life within me has gone

The nights seem long
The moon doesn’t show
My heart doesn’t want to let go
You leave me behind not so strong

Every moment I spend alone
Every breath I take in loneliness
I live in darkness
Even though my happiness is long gone

My walking stick

You are a constant support
Standing by me
Guiding my steps
You are my walking stick in drapes.

With you around
I feel very secure and sound
Making it easier to move ahead
You are my walking stick, after all is said.

I love the way u always walk with me
You take away my pains
Cause I know you won’t let me fall
You are my walking stick, standing tall

We walk hand in hand
We always by each other stand
No matter where, no matter what
All battles together we have fought
And you are the best walking stick I have ever got.

I wake each morning
Looking forward to the day
I wonder what life would unfold
A surprise on its way

I walk past the memories
I smile at their thought
Silently wishing things always remain the same
And thanking god for the life I have got

Everyday is a new beginning
To a joy of love
To a feeling of being
To a number of blessing sent from above :)

Take me away

I miss you a lot
Since the time you have left
I feel a void within me
I wish you hadn’t left me behind
Without you to this world I’m blind.

The day we parted ways
I had to go back to loneliness
You had taken it away when we met
With a promise to always be there we started a new world
A promise you never kept.
A world that was shattered without a word.

I wonder why it had to be you
Why weren’t we given a little more time?
To capture life together
To collect memories forever

As I drown in my grief
I see you standing by me...
You reach out for my hand
And make a promise to always beside me stand.
My eyes close to the world behind
With you I will a new life surely find.

I don't understand us any more
I feel shut out behind a closed door
When I look around I no more know who am I?
It so difficult for me to gather the truth from the lie

I believed in you,
Held on to every word you said...
All this for leaving me dead
I fought the inner voice that held me back
Maybe if I had listened I would still be on track.

Now I'm lost, don't know where to go
In this darkness the path won't show.
I wish I never trusted you
I wished I knew what was really true

You cheated me and left me hurt
As I wait for life to end...
A little prayer upwards I do send
I pray never to meet a person like you next birth!!!!

When you are gone

I feel so lost
I feel so alone
I feel like I have no where to go
I feel like I have no one to talk

I wish all this would end
I wish I didn’t need so much to depend
I wish I could be on my own
I wish my heart didn’t feel so torn

Life has played a game on me
Given me what I always wanted
With a dark lining that I never did see
Its mocked at me and left a soul forever haunted

I sit here waiting for someone to listen
I sit here hoping for someone to understand
I search for an answer to my problems
I search for peace within myself

All this with a hope that’s fading away
With love that I can no longer feel
With dreams that no longer seem as real
With a life that no longer seems alive

I woke only to find myself in a pitch dark place…my mind seemed paralyzed as I tried to accustom myself to my surroundings I was always scared of being alone in the dark, I tried to rationalize my thoughts figuring out why I was surrounded by the thing I hated most??? What was I doing sometime back? Wasn’t I at work? I left in the morning for work as usual today, in the afternoon I had an appointment with the chairman of the Bravery award academy ,I was being felicitated later this month for my courage to standup against one of the highly acknowledged ministers in the country.

When I think about it now I’m glad I left it behind me. The stress, insecurity during the hearing was a bit too much for me. I was given 24/7 security till the hearing and the media hyped up the situation, changing me from a nobody to a Hero in no time.

To start off with I was happy I was suddenly popular at work; people knew me and even stopped to congratulate me for my bravery. I felt happy cause to achieve this level of success all I had to do was spare 5 minutes of my schedule and speak the truth. All this lasted only for a few days..to be precise only for 2 days and then suddenly we started getting calls to take back our statements, I had a bigger and better job offer. The resistances only made me fight harder wanting to see the crook behind bars. I felt like a Hero trying to save the world from the clutches of the evil and then one day when the police barged into our house demanding us to vacate and took me away from my family into a protective house arrest my dream world collapsed. I was 200 miles away from my family, I was surrounded my men in uniform with guns, I was ordered not to get out of the house my job was taken up by another and I had no contact with the world outside. Days went on to become weeks and week to a few months.

Then came the judgment day I was taken to the court in a bullet proof van with meshed window..in my mind I felt like a hardcore criminal kept away from the world surrounded by guards. My thoughts were disturbed when my name was called out to appear before the judge. There I was standing face to face with the person whose death was in my hands. I looked at him hoping to see a guilty face but was taken aback by the revengeful eyes with which he saw me. I quickly finished my work and was out of the court…my family waiting for me.

Things would at last be normal I had no threat to my life now.

Life went back to a routine as usually I yo-yoed between office and home and I was again an unknown until the bravery academy thought of honoring me.

This faithful morning I was on my visit to the chairman of the academy when out of no where I felt a blow on my head things blacked out and I guess I passed out…now I’m sitting here all alone, was I kidnapped?? Were they going to kill me?? Suddenly out of no where I hear my mom’s voice, she doesn’t sound happy…and then I can hear her quivering voice ‘She hates darkness and now she has to live with it for the rest of her life’…