Dark days..Darker nights..

I sit here in a room so cold
In the dark I await to confront my fear
I remember how I was always told
To be strong and never shed a tear

It started with a small argument
Which heated to a fight
I tried to stop you, I tried to calm you
But I landed bruised that night

I wanted to walk out
You promised me you had never shout
You begged for me to stay back
Assured me you had get our life on track

Your promise lasted for a day
You went back to your old way
I wished I had the strength to move on
I wished I had known all your love was long gone

My days became dark
My nights I no longer saw
The wounds cut in so deep
Seeing them a stranger could weep

I hide from the world
I walked away from friends
Ashamed I would pretend
Like things were fine
Making others believe the fault was always mine

My pain seems far my grief is nothing
When I see their innocent smile
When I feel their gentle touch
They take away my sorrow
They make me want a brighter tomorrow

I have to protect them
I have to keep them safe
I want to surround them with affection
And secure them with love
In them I never want to see your reflection

I make a promise to myself
To get out of this hell
I have to be strong
I know I can no longer like this can carry on

As the rays of sunlight pierce my eyes
My heart skips a beat
As door opens wide
Footstep become more clear
His breath seems so near
As he walks up to me
I plunge down my anger straight into his heart
I can feel the warmth of his blood
For the first time in his eyes fear I see
I want to tear his soul apart
For all that he has done to me

Favorite child

Everybody loved her
Her smile was a charm
Her heart was warm
After all she was everybody’s favorite child

She thought she was lucky
To have a family so loving
To have friends so caring
After all she was everybody’s favorite child

She thought she was blessed
So she put in that extra mile
She did things to make others smile
After all she was everybody’s favorite child

Everybody wanted her to be theirs
Her life was owned by their commands
Her steps where governed by their demands
After all she was everybody’s favorite child

She thought they would stand by her
To guide her through her decisions
To help her see her visions
After all she was everybody’s favorite child

She thought they heard her speak
She told them her stories
She spoke of her memories
After all she was everybody’s favorite child

Everybody was taken surprised
Her dreams were not for her to decide
Her wishes were not for her to say
How could she leave them behind?
How could she have her own mind?
After all she was everybody’s favorite child

She thought they would love her for life
But she was wrong, too late she realized
Their love lasted till she had not spoken
Their affection showed till her eyes had not opened
How could she have a thought of her own?
After all she was everybody’s favorite child

Understanding me..

I have seen this feeling in the face
I have felt the pain and the disgrace
People I loved have told me to go
They look away at the fear of my shadow

No matter how hard I try
No matter how much I care
Every step I take is considered a mistake
Every emotions of mine is considered fake
To them my love feels like a lie

I don’t know where I go wrong
I listen to their sorrows
I wipe their tears
And yet they look at me with fear

They question my love
They hurt my feelings
They stay away from me
Cause no faith in me they can see

I want them to know I’m not that bad
I want them to know they make me sad
If only they would have understood me
My love for them they would see

I didn't want to

I can see grim faces
I can see teary eyes
All wishing for a miracle
All wanting to trade their lives

I had never seen so much love
I had never felt so much pain
The white corridors were filled with people
Each trying to console the other

I wanted them to know all would be OK
I wanted them to know I would make things right
I wanted them to know I would be there till the morn
Keeping them company all through the night

I didn’t want to hurt them so bad
I didn’t want to make them cry
I didn’t want to leave them behind
I really dint want to die…

I struggled to see them for the last time
I put on a fake smile
My heart didn’t want to let go
But life had other plans
The faces faded out
The voices seemed far
I knew it was time to move on
I knew it was time to go…

Unknown voices

As the day fades
I walk deeper into the woods
I want to stay away
But something compels me to go on

Unknown voices fill my mind
They conquer my thoughts
And rule my heart
I want to say no
But I still continue to go

Lost in the darkness
I stumble across the path
I dread my next step
As the future I cannot see
But the voices keep me focused
They tell me where to be

I continue in blind faith
Believing in what I can only hear
I want to break free
I want me to explore
Instead on being what the voices want me to be

I have tried to escape
I have tired to hide
But they always seem to be following
Ruling my mind guiding my soul
I want them to let go
But they never will, I know…

Irony of life

When you want the sun to shine out bright
When you think everything is going your way
Just when you feel things are perfect
The clouds creep in
The day fades leaving behind a dim light
And that’s the end of a perfect day

This is life
This is the irony
It plays a game
Something that we never can see

When you want to catch a dream
When you think the time has finally come
Just when you feel your hard work has paid off
You can hear a laugh
The dreams you had built have all been shattered
And that’s the end of something that mattered

This is life
This is the irony
It plays a game
Something that we never can see

When you want someone so much
When you are waiting for that one touch
Just when you feel you can ask her out
The distance seems further
Your steps take longer
And that’s the of a perfect bond

This is life
This is the irony
It plays a game
Something that we never can see

When you finally feel content
When you think you have got all that you want
Just when sorrows no longer haunt
The doors open
The day fades, the lights dim
And that is the end of a perfect life

Friend

When I think of the time we spend together
It brings a smile on my face
The memories of those days
Reminds me of our carefree ways

We could talk for days together
People were amused at us forever
They thought we had get bored someday
But till now we haven’t parted our ways

We shared unspoken words
We stood together through thick and thin
And happily shared our losses and wins
Together we never need a third

I’m glad I found a true friend in you
You stood up for me when I needed it the most
You told me right from wrong when I seemed to be a little lost
I’m glad to have found a friendship so true

Today when our only meetings are virtual
Our understanding still remains mutual
We can still share a moment of silence
In mails that we read
And messages that we send
But I still feel the strength of our friendship will never end


(poo this is for u)