I'm so afraid..

I hide behind closed doors
I look away from the light
Against me I have to fight

As fear takes away my smile
I walk in shadows
I stay on my own as life goes

I speak no words
I silently survive
Each day I have to strive

My doubts hold me back
I'm so afraid
I dont think I can move ahead

Do you feel like me?

Do you feel like me?

Do you feel lost in this world?

Everyone rushing past you

No one looking back

Do you feel like me?
Do you feel like an outsider to life

Everyone walking away

No one just holding on

Do you feel like me?

Do you feel the emptiness?

Everyone leaving you behind

No one really cares...

I wonder if..

Thoughts wondering

Feelings lost

Nothing is known

Every breath is new

I wonder if this is how it will always be

Tears rolling

Fears hidden

Nothing is sure

Every stare is a blank

I wonder if this will ever change

Holding me back

I know I want to change
I know I need a different path
I know I need a new start
but somethings are holding me back

I know I have to take the first step
I know I need to be strong
I know I need to move on
but somethings are holding me back

I know I should  start now
I know I need my own way
I know I need my own day
but somethings are holding me back


I know I want answers
I know I need some space
I know I need a safe place
but somethings are holding me back

Nothing i can do

Where did all those years go?
Nothing seems the way it was
Its a feeling that i don't know
Deep inside i can feel the loss

You say things are fine
You feel the same
But i can no longer say you are mine
All i know is your name

Your smile is fake
Your words not true
I can see us break
But nothing i can do..

????

Do i really matter?
Or am i just another person?
Someone to hangout and have fun

Is my presence really felt?
Or am i just a shadow?
Putting up a show

Will I really be missed?
Or am i just a lost heart?
Whose absence will create a new start....

Love has taught me

Love has taught me to be alone
Love has made me stronger
Love has made me mend a heart torn
Love has taught me to wait no longer

Love is not what i thought it was
Love is not always a smile
Love is not following natures laws
Love is always away a mile

Love has taught me to be alone
Love has made me stronger
Love has made me not hope for a spark
Love has taught me to wait no longer

Love is not always a call away
Love is not always true
Love is not what they say
Love is always to hurt you

why do i still love?
why do i still hold on to a hope?
Why do i still believe?
One day love will turn my world around...